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The One Where Shea decides This is going to be the year...

I wanted a whole week to jump into 2020. Mostly because I am tired of not following through with things. I make goals, I start out hard and then I find all of the excuses. I get frustrated and then I start an infinite loop of me starting and stopping, starting and stopping until a new year comes along and I pledge, like years past, to follow through and make this THE YEAR!! So what makes this year different? What makes this the year it's finally going to stick? I'm not sure I have the answer or maybe I do and the conclusion that I have come up with is "Why Not!!?? This year!!"

The first day always feels good. I wrote down a daily list of things I want to accomplish. Laid out the books I want to start reading and even started journaling a little bit. Quite honestly I feel pretty good that it is 4:00 pm and I haven't once thought about throwing in the towel! Never mind the fact that my coffee I decided to try tastes like blended up burnt steaks (I know, I know, I'll get used to it) or that I still have a few things on my list I have yet to cross off; today, from my perspective, is a GREAT day!

I'm not going to say that years past have been complete failures. My agenda to start the year is always a little different than how I end the year, but every year I rise to a new level from where I was. While at at the end of the year, I may feel like a "failure" when I really take the time to look at my growth from start to finish, I always find that I am a better human being at the end than when I began. I think we all hope for that no matter what our "end" might be.

I took a couple weeks off from "life", I didn't go to the gym (for those that know me, this was huge), I didn't put any expectations on myself, I just learned to really love the life that I am in. It was a great couple of weeks, to be honest. I maybe fell in love a little too much with the tv and maybe indulged in too many good snacks, but that break allowed me to really appreciate the person that I am, where I have been and what it is that I want to do.

This year is going to be filled with a lot of goals, some "short comings", some "blow it out of the waters" and some just enjoying this awesome thing we call life. What else is This Year going to be? It's going to be a year of being kinder to the person that I am. Setting goals, but being understanding if for some reason I don't meet them goals and allowing myself not to be "perfect"; something I know that we all struggle with.

So as I stare at this blank page in front of me, I'm tucking the things in my heart that have challenged me, the people that I love, the lessons that I learned and the adventures that are waiting for me and I am ready to not only start the year, but ready to make 2020 THE YEAR!

I hope that you are ready for some deep thoughts, all the heart, maybe a few tears and some great adventures with Shea because this blog is going to be filled with it! Long blogs, short blogs, random and sometimes daily; whatever my little heart is feeling will be for your eyes to read! I'm going to be more "human" than I have ever been, mostly because for once, I am going to allow myself to be imperfectly perfect!

Whatever you filled your head with to make 2020 the best one yet, know I am right along side of you. Know that you are amazing wherever the year takes you and that just because goals aren't met or desires aren't filled, doesn't mean that life isn't still leading you to where you are meant to go! Big hugs and all the love to you and a little more to those who need it most! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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"All parts of the journey are sacred and holy. Take time now to honor the beginning."

Nothing Butta love for you all!